rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
who am i
Hi! I'm
Sharley but everyone calls me... well, i guess i have too many nicknames to list, opps:X
I'm
14 going on 15 this year and to all those darlings out there, remember my presents on
29 Aug! XD
Currently studying in
RGS, class
303 and a proud
richardsonion.
I
swim because I'm too cool for a sport that requires clothes. i
dance because I'm so hot I melt.
dailies
Saturday, November 8, 2008
-1:13 AM
Okay, i know i'm suppose to post, but i don't feel like it. I've been feeling down lately. I feel like my life has been a waste... feel that i'm such a failure, a loser, a sucker. I feel that i'm not good enough, i'm not smart enough, i can't swim as well as last time, i can't run as well as last time, i can't play the piano lately... all in all,
I FEEL INFERIOR TO THE WORLD!!!
It's like my life sucks, so bad i can almost cry my eyes out. I have this heavy load on my chest, like something building up, i can't quite describe it. It's been there for like what... 2 weeks? I have no idea how to ease it, and it seems to be getting heavier and heavier with each passing day. I can't quite seem to cry either, and that makes the whole situation even worse, cause if i cry, at least i can relieve myself of these emotional pain. Now i have these... i don't knows inside of me, building up, pressurizing me, making me feel so insignificant to the world. It's like i'm just another human being on earth, if i disappear from this world, what difference would it make? I'm not someone who's important like George Bush, or Obama, etc. I'm just an insignificant 14 year old teenager who has no accomplishments at all, who doesn't excel at anything she does, who maybe lots of people dislike or even hate! What am i compared to the world? I'm always the loser, the sucker, well hell, some even say i'm nerdy. Am i nerdy? Is it just because i study in an elite school and read many books that i'm nerdy?? If so, i think at least half of this planet will be occupied by nerds like me! Urgh, you know what, this is useless! I hate myself, i hate the fact that i'm such a loser, that i suck at everything i do, that i can't do anything that can make me feel proud about myself! Now, this post seems like it's all about me, well great! Now people will think that i'm just a selfish brat who only knows how to complain about how life is not perfect for her, how she only thinks about herself and not about how other people feel about themselves after reading this post. Well let me tell you, I AM A SELFISH BRAT! Who isn't?! People only know how to care about themselves. They put themselves first, never second! Only a handful of people know how to really care about others, always putting themselves last and others first. And what's wrong with complaining about my life? It's MINE! And thus YOU wouldn't know how it feels like to be in my shoes! Therefore, you wouldn't know how it feels like to constantly be compared to others, how it feels like to just want to be on par with everyone else in the world! You wouldn't know, unless you are in the same situation as me, otherwise you wouldn't know cause you are NOT me! For all those out there who thinks i'm better than you, don't think that, because i'm sure you are good at something which i'm not! I'm never good at anything, whatever i do, i just suck at it! Forgive me for all this whining, i just need to let out some... steam? Oh wells, it's getting late, should go to sleep now, nights(:Labels: *~Dreaming~*
