rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Sunday, May 25, 2008
-4:15 PM
SORRY! Never blog for so long. Busy lah, so many things to do, now at least got some time. Woohoo!!! It's the holidays! Happy!!! Yah okay, shall blog about what happened in the last few days...The above was typed 2 weeks ago... now in Malaysia, cousin's house! (=Yup, so i shall blog about Warren Swim Meet...Ya, so woke up at like 6.55am, and got ready. Ate some biscuits and drank Milo, i know, a very light breakfast. Reached there, met up with Michelle, went to register. Got a free TYR red colour shoe bag and a free green colour water bottle! (= Yup! So did stretching then went to warm up. After that, got up and dry, then stripped my drag suit. Ya, so sat next to Lydia who listened to music and read her book (she's doing the same thing as me! (= ) and Gen who was annotating the event list. Haha. Then very fast the events started. Got ready for 50m breaststroke. Strangely, i felt super super nervous, my heart was thumping like siao!!! Swam a 40.99 seconds (So STUPID!!!) and broke Wan Ting's record! Haha, damn happy! I'm getting my form back! (=Ya, then it was 50m backstroke next. Swam a 39.41 seconds. Totally unexpected!!! I thought i would swim a 41 or 40 seconds. Yup, so broke another record. (= Then, it was 50 fly. Swam a 36.02 seconds. Damn SLOW lah! )= Ya, so got a silver. I think it was around this time that the events started going supersupersuper fast, well, at least for me that is. I had 100m breaststroke. Swam 1.31! Happy! I'm getting my form back!!! (= Yup, so i have 3 golds and 1 silver. Then, it was 100 fly. I died! I went to hell then came back to earth. First 50 was okay, next 25, i was feeling tired already. Last 25... was HELL! I practically drowned! Even Gen caught up with me! But ya, i struggled and touch with a 1.23. I know that is a slow timing, don't have to tell me! Ya, so last event, 200m breaststroke. I was dead tired already. Tried to pace Emma, but can't! Swam a 3.20. Damn Slow right!!! It was 10 seconds off my best!!! Boo!!! )= Yup, so in total i have 4 golds, 2 silvers, broke 3 records and set 1 record. And so, i got the best girl! (=
Okay, now i'm back home! Haha!
Yup, so after that, went home with Isabelle. To my house, not her house. Listened to songs and went blog hopping. Then went out at 4.35pm to meet up with Brandon and Darwin and Gen. Yup, then we went up to the fourth floor to BLUEZ, where i dunno who bought what. Then Lydia and Deborah came. At first we wanted to eat Pastamania, but Deborah don't like food made from flour (weird, i know, since lots of food is made from flour...). So Isabelle suggested New York, but the food is all Western type. So in the end, we went to Sakae Sushi.
We wanted to eat tepanyaki at first, but then too ex, so we went for the normal meal. It was so darn hilarious to eat with Brandon and Darwin. (okay, i took the following from Gen's blog since i'm too lazy to type it all out. Haha!)
**Darwin ordered a Beef Ramen. Picture this scene.
(W: waitress)"W: your beef Ramen sir. *Puts down the bowl, and then the flaked chili*
D:Thankyou. Uh, is this chili?*Holds up the flaked chili bottle*
S: Yes it is you put it in with the Ramen.
I: *Tips the flaked chili bottle over Darwin's ramen so it floats down.*
D: OH NO I DON'T LIKE CHILI STOP IT STOP IT!!*waves arms around*
W: Oh my god oh my god... Do you need me to change it for you?
I: NEVER MIND LAH. It tastes the same anyway...
D: Uh, nevermind la no need then*glares at isabelle*
W: Then I better take this away.*takes away the flaked chili*
Haha, his lame!!!! (=
S: I want soft shell crab.*Orders it with Isabelle*
W: Here's your soft shell crab ma'am.*Puts down the plate*
Sharley and Isabelle eats it, but then sharley needs a plate, so she asks me. Then she needs tissue...
S: Darwin, can you help me take a tissue please?
D: See I so kind*takes it*
S: (hands full) Can help me open?
D:!! *Opens it anyway, but then it drops into his UNEATEN bowl of Beef Ramen ahhhas*
D: WHAT THE HELL..."And Brandon scared him the entire time about 'Flushing'. Go figure out that yourself."
B: Never mind, it's just flushing. Just like gardening."
And we discussed how David is CHARISMATIC and not CREEPY.And Darwin wanted work as a waiter."
D: Excuse me sir, here's your xxxx *holds up the green plate*
B: You don't do it like that la! Let me show you... *Goes on and on about how to put the plate down in front of the customer and then point to the forks and knives/spoons etc.*
D: (Buay song liao) *Bangs the plate on the table* NAH! EAT LA."
D: KC's eyes see from upside down very big leh.
I: Whoa you two how far already ah? See each other's eyes upside down.
B: Yeah even I know Isabelle for like how long liao I dont go up to her and turn upside down to see how big her eyes are.
D: Sometimes she lie on me then sometimes I lie on her lo...
B: WHALAO what kamasutra way is that you both lie on top of each other.
D: NO LA! On the lap only la...
B:You go Geylang to do duck business then some tall tall women come and say EH WHY NO ONE HERE AH then he goes DOWN HERE LA."
That made Darwin sibeh buay song. That stupid High Class Monkey.After dinner (WHAKAO $108.50 wtff...) we went to library to calculate how much we had to pay each other. gen saved the day by calculating everything out nicely. We had to calculate it so many times because the first time it wasn't correct, then not accurate, then forgot to add in stuffs, then GST never add in, then forgot about the 10% Service charge, then GST count wrong, so yeah. gen used up an entire A4-sized paper to do the entire calculations and a lot of handphone memory. Bleah. And they made a lot of noise in the library.**
Yup, so the above was taken from Gen's blog. Haha, i couldn't eat properly!!! I was like eat 2 spoonfuls, then laugh, eat 2 spoonfuls, then laugh again.
Okay, shall stop blogging now cause i have 41 messages waiting for me to read! (=
Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Friday, May 16, 2008
-10:44 PM
Haha, feeling bored, hence decided to do some random quizzes. (= Check it out!
You are Ocean Blue
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You're both warm and practical. You're very driven, but you're also very well rounded.
You tend to see both sides to every issue, and people consider you a natural diplomat.
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This is QUITE (note that i said quite!) accurate! (=
Your Luck Quotient: 65%
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You have a high luck quotient.
More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life.
You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that.
Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.
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Not sure if this is right, feels weird, haha...
You Are 4% Spoiled
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You are definitely not spoiled. You've worked hard for what you have.
Down to earth and grounded, you don't need a lot to make you happy.
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Haha, i don't know, maybe...
Okay, gotta stop blogging now, if have time tomorrow, i'll blog about today and maybe also tomorrow. (= Bye!
Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Thursday, May 15, 2008
-3:12 PM
Hey! Guess what? I'm in hell now. (= Haha, i suffered yesterday. Oh ya, why did it rain yesterday? Cause God FEELS for us. Get it? No? Okay fine. It simply means that God is blind, therefore we have to go through the injustice of us getting horrible marks. )= I know I'm lame, you don't need to say anything.
Anyways, yesterday was horrible. I died like don't know how many times okay??!! Papers were seriously screwed! )= Horrible!!! Geog and Chem were good. Hist, Maths, Chinese and Lit were okay, not really what i expected, quite disappointed. English was just downright horrible. The worst i have ever did. It was like crap kay??!! I wanted to burst out in tears for that subject. Stupid!!! All because of English, my GPA got pulled down by what... 0.15??!! IT'S DAMN CRAP!!! )= Hate myself! **** lah! My wonderful GPA got pulled down because of English!!! Why?? WHY??!!
Okay, I'm cool, I'm cool. Still a little bit emotionally shaken. This year's MYA was a little bit better than last year's one. If only my English didn't get so low, this year's MYA would have been a lot more better!!! Boo hoo hoo... )= Aiya, what's done is done. No point crying over spilled milk. Just hoping that my Mid Year overall GPA would be better than last year's Mid Year overall GPA or maybe even better than last year's End Of Year overall GPA. I'm wishing upon a star. (=
Oooooooooooo. Wan Shuen's birthday is coming soon. Going to get a joint gift with Carly for her. Don't know what she needs or wants. Hmmm... Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
-1:33 PM
Was it very long since i last posted? Nvr mind...
Anyways, News Flash:
***RESULTS TOMORROW***
Ahhh! Tomorrow is the day that determines whether i die or i live! Okay, maybe not that kua zhang, but i will cry if my first half of the year results are bad. )= Pls pls pls let me have okay, good and excellent results, no bad ones. I beg of you!!! I have no idea how I'll react if i get lower than expected. Who knew that waiting for/ getting back results is much more stressful than exams itself??!! Some more, Thursday is the day to hand up geog PT! Wahwah, ni jiu rao le wo ba!!! Why do i have this feeling that I'm gonna get disappointed? I hope that for this time, my gut feeling is wrong. But why do i still have that stone in my chest??!! )= The moment of truth is arriving... On a happier note, its gonna be the holidays soon *cheering, clapping, fireworks*! Haha, ~ciao!
Wallowing in sorrow...
我开始慢慢地爱上你，
为你担心，
这就是我美丽的爱情故事。
-.-" Ignore that,its random and crap!!! (= Haha...
Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Saturday, May 10, 2008
-9:43 PM
Okay, shall blog since someone (i think you know who you are, haha!) requested. Okay, shall blog about the Jap show first!
*1 Litre of Tears*:
That show is one of the most meaningful one i have ever watched. Though i got a swollen eye because of that show, it was worth it. (= Haha. Ya, so its a true story about a girl called Kitō Aya who has an incurable disease. The show is base on her personal diary. The book has sold over 1.1 million copies in Japan alone! The story taught me lots of stuff, like how the world is never kind to anyone. Even the nicest and kindest person in the world suffers. Why did the disease choose me? she said. That question alone goes to show that everything in this world is unpredictable. Why her or him? Why, when i didn't do anything wrong? Why, when everything is going well for me? Why must my life crumble? WHY? The world is just so... *sighs* And why are human beings so bad (can't exactly find a word to describe)? They give her those discriminating stares like she is different from them. What is their problem, so what if a person is disabled? Does it mean that if someone is disabled you must look at them differently? They are just unlucky to be disabled, you think they want to? They want to be just like us, able to walk, talk, hear, see, etc. properly. When we take all these for granted, only those who have lost them or even don't have these ability treasure them even more. Seeing other people being able to do those things which you can't, their hearts are surely aching. Being forced to give up everything familiar to you, its so hard, so hard until your heart would break when you are forced to. Giving up basketball, the ability to run, etc., and now being forced to give up her education which is so important to her as it is the only thing remaining which links her to her past life, her heart must have shattered into nearly a trillion pieces. )= Its just so sad, losing everything you once knew. Oh, and her classmates are damn bad, only Haruto is truely nice to her. Just because she always come late for classes, and having to help her, they find it tiring. Only talking behind her back about the trouble she caused, they are simply devious. Yes, i admit that she would be a burden, but do you think she wants that? She isn;t so shameless as to want you to help and does not feel grateful or concern about you. If you feel that she is a burden, she would find some other way to help you relieve that burden. She wants to be normal like you. How would you like if you were the oe having the illness and your classmates talk behind your back, but when facing you they wear a mask and be nice to you? How would you like it if you only found out after accidentally stumbling upon their conversation? All she wants is to keep the only thing she has left, is it that hard? Just to complete her studies, she shed tons of tears. If it was you, would you be able to do it? Her sister Ako, her mum, and her dad is so awesome. They are so nice to her. Never giving up on her, always standing up for her and fighting for her. They are so supportive, if only everybody in this world can be like them, the world would be much more perfect, but of course, nothing is perfect. Her youngest sister os also very nice, drawing for her, supporting her. Hiroki, her brother, although he felt ashame of her at the beginning, he realises his mistake and supports her, going against his friends so as to stand up for her. Go AYA, may you always be remembered! I love you, if i were you, i think i would have given up half way and just wish die. You are my idol, you always have a ready smile when faced with any problems, you rock. You are so awesome, so brave! You are surely one of a kind! (=
Okay, wow, that was long, i still have more things to say, but i think i might be boring you all out, so i'll keep all those thoughts to myself. (= Shall talk about today then!
*Today*:
Had a fever this morning, so didn't go for swim team open house. Hope Ms Ong isn't angry. Mum told me to sleep somemore. So i did, for 5 minutes before i woke up crying. I don't know why i cried, maybe i'm just being emotional. Ya, so i practically cried myself to sleep. Haha. I'm so weird! So slept until 10. Woke up and did all those stuff. Did some of Geog PT. Gonna do Iceland cause its so damn cool! Haha. Ya, so then went for SL. Sorry Carly, kept you waiting for 10 minutes, GOMENNASAI, and ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU! So we went to the place and then Yujia came. I gave out the nametags to the kids, Carly took the attendance and Yujia gave out the forms. The kids are so hyper!!! They were like screaming and all. Oh, and they were also renovating the place, so it was super noisy. Haha. Ya, so helped out with their worksheets. You know what, i think the worksheets are damn easy (well, thats cause i was helping the P1s) haha. Anyways, helped to mark and then they had their arts and craft session with the MGS girls. They were doing art with beans, oh and sago (yes, SAGO! Funny!). Was super messy after that cause lots of the beans fell off and they used alot of glue. Not being mean, but some of their work are really very messy cause they just put glue everywhere and dump beans on them. Oh, and something really ... happened. There was 2 malay girls and 1 indian girl. One of the malay girl was crying cause she finds that the other malay girl was following her, calling her a copy-cat. She also say that the indian girl didn't want to be her friend and blah blah blah. Tried to calm her down, and then she did. Later, went to help the other kids out, then don't know what happen, she started crying again. Then now, the indian girl also cry. After awhile, both calmed down and i continued helping the other kids. Then, the malay girl started crying, AGAIN!!! WTH right? Calmed her down with the help of aunty May. So don't know what happen, the three of them became friends. -.-" I find that when we were young, we are really wierd. One moment friends, the next moment not friends anymore. Then, friends again, and the cycle repeats itself. I think children don't always understand the word "friend". I think i don't entirely understand the word either. I would think that he or she has a friend, but that person might just only be nice to you, but does not want to be friends. I think adults don't fully understand that word too. Oh well, nobody does. (=
Went home, ate dinner and watch liao zhai qi nv zi. Love liao zhai alot! Now, blogging. Hehe.
Wow, such along post! Longest one i have ever typed so far. Haha. Don't get bored kay? My parents are watching some scary show now. Oh wells, tomorrow will be another busy day, must not fen xin, must concentrate and finish everthing. Hahas, bye to whoever is so bored as to read this! (=
Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Thursday, May 8, 2008
-9:12 PM
AHHHH!!! I HAVE A SWOLLEN EYE!!!! )=
Booo!!! I want to cry le, my eyes hurts like hell every time i blink! )= I think my eye got swollen cause i cried my eyes out yesterday and i kept rubbing it. Ah! Stupid! I'm getting very emotional this few days watching dramas that make me cry every single episode. Especially the Jap show '1 Litres of Tears'. I think this is a very good title, cause i think by the time i watch finish this drama, i would have cried 1 litre worth of tears. (= But then now my eye is swollen cause i cried too much. Plus i'm reading books that would make me cry. Hehe.
Anyways, i have this feeling that i did very badly for Chem, Philo and Maths. I have this weird feeling inside me, like a stone or something. )= Aiya, women's instinct is very accurate one. If i score badly for this three papers or even the other papers, i'll kill myself!!! Ahhh! Next Wednesday get back result liao.... WAHWAHWAH!!! )= *pouting* Some more now eye swollen, tomorrow must go back to school for some stupid post MYA activities like RA talks, classroom clean up, etc. stupid la!!!
I think the next time i post, it would either be on the Jap show i mentioned earlier or about MYA results. So till then, ciao! (=
Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
-7:32 PM
7 down 1 more to go...
Yay! Left maths. (= Happy, happy, cannot wait for tomorrow's test to be over! Ahhhh! Next Wednesday have to check papers le. So fast! Just thinking about it, my heart starts pumping damn fast. I need to get good marks. If any of my test get less than 3.2 or 2.8, I'm gonna start crying! )= I really hope that i score for Chem. I'm abit worried about that one cause i seem to have made alot of mistakes. )= Worried about Philo too!!! If i don't pass, I'll not be able to be promoted to sec 3! Ahhhsss!!! Waiting for the exam results is kinda worst than taking the tests. Its like you think you did well in a particular test, but when you get your paper back, the marks are not what you wanted. Imagine the disappointment! )= I hope i don't get that kind of feeling. Okay, need to study for maths now. Last paper must score well. JIAYOUS SHARLEY! *.*
Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Monday, May 5, 2008
-10:32 AM
5 down 3 more to go...
Yay oh yay! Geog's out of the way, now it's Chem, Philo and Maths! Geog was okay, just that due to my carelessness, i lost 1 mark! Ah! Chem, must mug like damn hard to get the desired results. Philo, um... this is kind of slack, but still need to mug. Maths... I'll just do lots and lots of practices! Come on girl! You can do it, just 3 more papers! JIAYOUS!!! (=Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Sunday, May 4, 2008
-8:44 PM
I NEED to stop getting distracted. One moment I'm mugging for geog, the next, I'm reading my book. Then i start to mug again, a few minutes later, i limp (yes! Limp!) to my room and started slacking the hell out of me. WAHH!!! I need to concentrate! Focus Dear! Focus focus focus!!!
I swear, if i get distracted again, I'll not go out during the holidays! I SWEAR! But it's so hard! My lovely books are tempting me away... )= BOO HOO! Just have to endure another 3 more days of torture and I'll be free! Free from the clutches of exams! (= Come on Sharley! Focus, you have strong mental strength! Jia you! Ahhh... lovely books are tempting me again! I seriously am turning into a bookworm! )= But books are nice.
Speaking of books, i went to Changi Airport terminal 3 today! My grandparents are going back to Penang. It was soooooo awesome! The bookshop! I spent like 40 minutes in that wonderful bookshop! Hee. The books were so lovely can!!! (= For those who don't appreciate books, you will never understand the way i feel. Haha, that sounded funny. Anyways, i think after my exams, I'll start camping in libraries. (=
Okay, i shall stop blogging and start mugging. JIAYOUS! (=
Labels: *~Dreaming~*
Saturday, May 3, 2008
-12:09 PM
4 down 4 more to go...
Boo... still have 4 more papers to go. sian la, don't want study liao!!! )= Anyways, lit was... (i don't know how to describe). It was... good? I don't know la, i felt quite good but then i might not get the marks i want, so... aiya. I have an awful butt muscle ache!!! I can't sit down without feeling any pain! DAMN PAIN LAH!!! I shall stop blogging now and i will mug for GEOG! (= See, i'm such a good girl! =PLabels: *~Dreaming~*
Thursday, May 1, 2008
-11:12 AM
3 down 5 more to go...
Can't wait for the exams to end!!! Chinese was okay, like normal. History was okay too, just that section B, i wrote like super short, so i'm abit worried now that i'm gonna fail!!! )= I want my 3.6/4.0 GPA!!! BADLY!!! Boo... anyways, Lit is tomorrow, hope i don't screw it up. Geog next monday (I want my 4.0!!!!), Chem and Philo next tuesday, and lastly math is next wednesday! After that i'm free! Free as a bird! Ohno!!! Geog PT!!! ARGH!!! )=
*pouting* )=Labels: *~Dreaming~*
